i feel kinda regretted telling someone the thing. i dont mind people knowing, im forreal. but i do mind people judging and changing the way they treat me. dont judge if u cant understand. i was born this way. it has never been a choice for me. whatever. my intentions to tell a lot of ppl here in vn have all gone. it shouldnt be short before i reveal the thing to someone else.
and im feeling so insecure now for some reason. shes right. im back after 1 year and 4 months and i cant expect ppl to treat me like i was never gone. everyone has their own life and their stuff to do. thats true too. maybe i shouldnt have high expectations for anything from now on i guess.
a few things happened in the last 2 days and im really thinking if i still should go back to vn when im done w school. thats how shitty things are in vn.
and idk what to type now though i have so many freaken things on my mind rite now. it feels so good to know theres someone who can understand u so well. sucky thing is shes all the way in missouri lol and i really dont know when ll be the next time i can see her again o.o
peace out!
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TDN friends suck - big time. all of them. its my fault too lol. i dont keep in touch w people i dont feel like they r gonna be important in my life. and no i never wanna be the only one trying. whatever. these people are real "whatever" people in my life. no kidding.
and yeah i feel bad now that i dont open up to u guys a lot though now that im here in vn already. Thao is right (its u again Thaooooo!!!) ive only been here for 2 days i have to take things slowly first. but now u guys know anyway that yeah, im still sad. and upset. although we all know that its not worth it. but still, its normal, like how all of you told me. itd actually be weird if im not sad now.
and ML was right too, i have to love myself first before loving somebody else. perhaps i havent spent enuff time w myself. i need to figure out what i NEED and what i WANT before i just do things without thinking.
and i still hate too many people o.o
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