story of our lives

oh gosh

even the intention to cheat is cheating already. i guess someone doesnt know it. im feeling so good right now and im not even lying about it. its like when ur after something that u think its so cool and colorful and u want it so bad. but hey, u want it, u dont need it. and one day u realize behind all those pretty colors is just something ugly and cheap and u just never ever wanna be part of it anymore. it was so weird cause i thought id feel really upset. i got kinda upset. and then after the talk i was like errr, thanks but no thanks. and from the bottom of my heart, i thank u because u make me feel so good while i should feel the opposite. i do feel thankful to u for revealing the truth bout u urself while i didnt even have to make u do that. at first i even tried to feel down a bit so that itd be like in some love story but then i couldnt :(. it wasnt just cause of this but it was also thanks to all the fun i had last night that i realized id rather spend time thinkin bout those people who really matter in my life other than some person who is so lame and cheap. so yeah. from now on if i ever blog bout sad stuff again it should either be bout my gaining weight or losing money o.o

talking bout love, we had such a mắc cười convo today didnt we Ku den haha. the part i remembered so clearly is this one
_I wont say no this time, but if he doesnt ask, i cant say yes :))
story of our lives isnt it?

Thank You again, Father, for showing me what to do so clearly this time. It just all makes so much sense now. You were always there helping me get out of this stuff, I just couldn't see it. People, don't judge because you can't understand. In the end, it always makes perfect sense. It always does. Trust me, and you will trust Him like I do.