its so weird because the person who made me emotional today was my Dad o.o! he had to tiếp khách so he nhậu xỉn. he also has something in his eyes that makes him so irritating and he said he'd have to go to the hospital to have it checked tmr. i was so worried. i did and i ll continue praying about it tonight. he asked me to come into his room when he was lying on the bed and told me not to turn on the lights. i smelled something fishy already. and yes not very much to my surprise he started talking and crying. mom told me he always does that when he is xỉn but that was the first time i saw in in real life. he made me cry too :(. he said he loves me and my brother and that just give my bro the money he was asking for. oh gosh. still his trouble still his fucking spending habit and my Dad is still the one who gets hurt and loves us the most. because of that crap i didnt cry a lot lol. but still. i love my Mom and my Dad. i just realized how i shouldve spent more time with them. feeling so guilty right now.

thats all i can blog for now. i wanna cry again :(