I wish I could say and do all the right things, fall for the right girl(s) at the right time. but in the end, is there actually a "right" definition for "right"? aren't we supposed to do all these "wrong" things to learn, to experience, to finally have just a little bit sense of what "not-wrong" would be like? not to even mention what is "right"
I wish I have all the answers in life. why do we need water to survive? why is apple called apple? why are there gay people? why do we go to school to learn crap and roughly 70% of us won't do what we majored in in college?
back to me? why do I have to be gay? even if I'm not bothered by it, why do I have to crush on certain people that I know I will never have a chance with? why is my faith not a bit strong as it used to be? why are there so many things I can share with no one but keep to myself because I am afraid I might be judged?
I need to learn how to control myself. to keep things in check at all times. to just not always express how I feel, what I think, and maybe even who I am as a unique human being. that sounds tough
but aren't they all a part of life we have to deal with everyday?
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