i feel like ive got a lot a lot like a lot to talk about. but everytime i start typing i just dont know what to say anymore. what to. what not to. does it even really matter anyway :D?

i read this thing on pinterest recently. some people are meant to fall in love but not meant to be together. it makes sense doesnt it? you can love someone and not want to spend a lot of time with that person. that one i heard from somewhere and actually have it typed in a draft on my old phone. love is not a feeling. it's an ability. why am i quoting random stuff... i dont even know. it's hard not to mention love or marriage. im already at that age where every corner i turn to someone is getting married or already seeing/dating someone. im even that old now when all i can think of when i hear someone is dating is "so are you gonna get married to that person?". because guess what i still remember just a year ago i still didnt believe in marriage. who wants to see the same boring face every morning you wake up every night you go home to from work every day for the rest of your life. well. that's what makes marriage marriage. you commit to it. you do things you thought you would never be able to. you will go thru hard times. that's for sure. you will feel lonely. empty. at times you will wonder to yourself "shit why am i married again?". but in the end, you will look at that face next to yours when you wake up and think to yourself "it all makes sense now cus ive got you". yeah. I've got you ;)

i work a lot now. like 44 hours a week. it feels good to work n have money. thou there are so many stuff ive to spend money on i can hardly save any. i still enjoy it. wanna know why? i like seeing Hang at work. it used to be worse but its gotten better now. talking about working, man we may all enjoy it a little bit way too much. im not kidding. but i know deep down every single one of the people working with me enjoy work as much as i do. yes we may get tired (not may, I DO get exhausted all the time) but its like a second home. i know i love it. Tai loves it. Hang loves it. one of the customers that I call "chị đẹp" said we look like a "gia đình nhỏ". thats cute isnt it ;]

i cant wait to meet my significant other. im sorry. i remember i used to judge those kids who just HAVE to date someone all the time (relationship whore that is). but i want to meet my "person" too. i want to cuddle with her. to text her when i almost fall asleep in class. to tell her i got big tips today. or to ask her to go check out this new restaurant thats got really good ratings on Yelp. i wanna do all that. with her. my her. truly.

of all the people ive met in life. whos gonna stay with me for the rest of my/their life? whos gonna leave? whos gonaa leave then come back? why am i even asking random questions....

I actually know what im looking in a girl. mother figure. i just realized that not too long ago. maybe cus im too much of a child? i want to be taken care of. to get mad for no reason. to be childish and be forgiven.

- Bất cứ điều gì xảy ra thì đó chính là điều nên xảy ra :)