July 10th = first kiss. his home. his room. don't really know why, but I definitely get comfy really fast with him. maybe cause I'm old, I've lived long enough to know when I can trust a guy and rely on him.

July 12th = more kissing, talk and some tears. blame my period and my hormones. he gets a boner every time we kiss. I think that's really cute. and gross. but in a good way.

posibly?

possibly.

Dao nay cam thay so nhieu thu. Giong dang o mot giai doan ma cam thay very vulnerable. So ve nha mot minh. So lam nhieu thu mot minh. Co be ngay xua thich di Disneyland mot minh hinh nhu da bien mat.

I wish you well ;]

every time someone visits and then leaves it leaves such a big hole in my heart. it does. especially this time. when I live by myself. on my own. usually there's chi Thu's family that I'd be surrounded with but not anymore. It's just me going home to myself this time after Bom and Thao left. and I will admit it, I am really sad. I miss you both, and let's meet again soon ok ;]

The Way

I like the things that we don't share in common. The smile on your face. The liveliness and brightness you always bring to the room. The laugh. The distinct sound you always make no matter what pair of shoes you have on. The eyes. The way you look when you don't have glasses on. Your makeup - sometimes too much makeup that is yet, you still don't look one bit fake or plastic. The belly touching. You randomly touching my belly that is. The way you talk. The way you handle everything. The frustrated look you have sometimes. Your hair. Your gray gray hair. Your height. I don't remember knowing anyone as short as you are. The look. The healthy smoothie you always bring to work. The beverages that you never drink from anywhere but home cause you don't know how they make the ice. That dinner that we shared. Only one time and I can't wait for it to happen again. The glasses. You look better with glasses off but I like you either way.

No shit. Did I just say I like you already.

Well

Then.

#livelikeweredying

started a new job. two that is. barely making 3k a month, but everyone gotta start somewhere don't we. moved out. new people. things change. new life. not really. glad that at least I have fun at work and learn something new every day. could proudly give people my resume now. just realized adults enjoy feeding me. sometimes I eat not for me but for the people enjoy watching me eat.

some relationships fall apart. understandable. out of sight out of mind. things happen and we can't blame no one. can we?

what's up with people trying to set me up with random people. and people asking me out. NO. as long as you are a guy, you are not qualified. clear?

we can't decide where we are from, but we can decide where we go from there. so let's go. let's move on. let's live like we are dying. OK? :)

EFF

You think some people would never turn their back on you, but eventually, they will. Life is disappointing. It is. One minute they say things you wanna hear promise you shit and the next they are already getting busy talking shit about you. It sucks. Don't promise things you can't keep. And when you are already a promise breaker, stop blaming it on the other person. How mature. How do people manage to have not one or two or three but four kids and still act like some fucking immature ignorant teenager who goes around trying to make everyone hate the crush that turns down their prom invite. Like just fucking how is that even possible?! Karma is a bitch only if you are. I don't think I was the bitch here because I found a fucking job after being unemployed for only ONE WEEK and you people are still struggling with staff management while dealing with all the messes of opening the new store. So yeah. We can clearly see who is getting all the shitty karma now. FUCK YOU!

Bisexuality at its finest

I don't believe in bisexuality. Not that I am against it. If anything, I would be the last person on Earth to be judgmental towards who people choose to love and be in a committed relationship with. I’ve already broken a lot of rules out there to not have even the tiniest bit tendency towards men of any kind, so when I say I don’t judge bisexual people, I mean it. It’s just, weird. If you have been in a heterosexual relationship before you are in a homosexual relationship, doesn’t that mean you choose to be with your current partner because it is a better relationship? If you already know what’s better (or even best) for you, why still identify yourself as someone who can play for both teams? Pick a team, choose a side! I think I’ve heard it somewhere on YouTube but someone called bisexual people GREEDY BITCHES (Tyler Oakley wasn’t it). I just have to agree now. THEY ARE AREN’T THEY? I did actually come out to a friend over here as a bisexual person (that was when I first ever started coming out to people and I might have been confused okayyyy!) and she was like NO THAT’S NOT A THING. As pissed and confused as I was, now that I think about it, ain’t it true? I don’t get it. How do people like BOTH girls and guys. Ok starting to sound judgy here but seriously? Wait but if some straight people asked me why I like girls and not guys I won’t be able to answer either… *awkward silence*. Anyhow that’s that. And it’s not like I have never thought of being in a relationship with a straight girl either. My belief is that there will be at least one person out there of the same gender as you that will make you fall in love with in your lifetime. Thao was like WOW THAT’S A STATEMENT Yen. I was like yeah. Haha. But will you ever meet that person? Will you even pay attention to them when you do meet them and will you have enough time to get to know them before you let them get on the life train and move on? Who knows. You love who you love. We are who we are. Love whoever that makes you laugh the most and doesn’t get sick of seeing your shitty makeupless bloated face every morning. Who won’t mind kissing you with your morning breath and will go to Taco Bell in the middle of the night to get you some enchilada just cause you are having a random craving like a preggo woman (I don’t even like Taco Bell how the hell did it just come up when I was typing and wtf is enchilada anyway…). I am proud to be who I am and so should you. Wait what. So I started this post stating how I don’t believe in you bisexual people and now I am telling you to be proud of what I don’t believe in? Wait what. What what what.