The Way

I like the things that we don't share in common. The smile on your face. The liveliness and brightness you always bring to the room. The laugh. The distinct sound you always make no matter what pair of shoes you have on. The eyes. The way you look when you don't have glasses on. Your makeup - sometimes too much makeup that is yet, you still don't look one bit fake or plastic. The belly touching. You randomly touching my belly that is. The way you talk. The way you handle everything. The frustrated look you have sometimes. Your hair. Your gray gray hair. Your height. I don't remember knowing anyone as short as you are. The look. The healthy smoothie you always bring to work. The beverages that you never drink from anywhere but home cause you don't know how they make the ice. That dinner that we shared. Only one time and I can't wait for it to happen again. The glasses. You look better with glasses off but I like you either way.

No shit. Did I just say I like you already.

Well

Then.

#livelikeweredying

started a new job. two that is. barely making 3k a month, but everyone gotta start somewhere don't we. moved out. new people. things change. new life. not really. glad that at least I have fun at work and learn something new every day. could proudly give people my resume now. just realized adults enjoy feeding me. sometimes I eat not for me but for the people enjoy watching me eat.

some relationships fall apart. understandable. out of sight out of mind. things happen and we can't blame no one. can we?

what's up with people trying to set me up with random people. and people asking me out. NO. as long as you are a guy, you are not qualified. clear?

we can't decide where we are from, but we can decide where we go from there. so let's go. let's move on. let's live like we are dying. OK? :)

EFF

You think some people would never turn their back on you, but eventually, they will. Life is disappointing. It is. One minute they say things you wanna hear promise you shit and the next they are already getting busy talking shit about you. It sucks. Don't promise things you can't keep. And when you are already a promise breaker, stop blaming it on the other person. How mature. How do people manage to have not one or two or three but four kids and still act like some fucking immature ignorant teenager who goes around trying to make everyone hate the crush that turns down their prom invite. Like just fucking how is that even possible?! Karma is a bitch only if you are. I don't think I was the bitch here because I found a fucking job after being unemployed for only ONE WEEK and you people are still struggling with staff management while dealing with all the messes of opening the new store. So yeah. We can clearly see who is getting all the shitty karma now. FUCK YOU!

Bisexuality at its finest

I don't believe in bisexuality. Not that I am against it. If anything, I would be the last person on Earth to be judgmental towards who people choose to love and be in a committed relationship with. I’ve already broken a lot of rules out there to not have even the tiniest bit tendency towards men of any kind, so when I say I don’t judge bisexual people, I mean it. It’s just, weird. If you have been in a heterosexual relationship before you are in a homosexual relationship, doesn’t that mean you choose to be with your current partner because it is a better relationship? If you already know what’s better (or even best) for you, why still identify yourself as someone who can play for both teams? Pick a team, choose a side! I think I’ve heard it somewhere on YouTube but someone called bisexual people GREEDY BITCHES (Tyler Oakley wasn’t it). I just have to agree now. THEY ARE AREN’T THEY? I did actually come out to a friend over here as a bisexual person (that was when I first ever started coming out to people and I might have been confused okayyyy!) and she was like NO THAT’S NOT A THING. As pissed and confused as I was, now that I think about it, ain’t it true? I don’t get it. How do people like BOTH girls and guys. Ok starting to sound judgy here but seriously? Wait but if some straight people asked me why I like girls and not guys I won’t be able to answer either… *awkward silence*. Anyhow that’s that. And it’s not like I have never thought of being in a relationship with a straight girl either. My belief is that there will be at least one person out there of the same gender as you that will make you fall in love with in your lifetime. Thao was like WOW THAT’S A STATEMENT Yen. I was like yeah. Haha. But will you ever meet that person? Will you even pay attention to them when you do meet them and will you have enough time to get to know them before you let them get on the life train and move on? Who knows. You love who you love. We are who we are. Love whoever that makes you laugh the most and doesn’t get sick of seeing your shitty makeupless bloated face every morning. Who won’t mind kissing you with your morning breath and will go to Taco Bell in the middle of the night to get you some enchilada just cause you are having a random craving like a preggo woman (I don’t even like Taco Bell how the hell did it just come up when I was typing and wtf is enchilada anyway…). I am proud to be who I am and so should you. Wait what. So I started this post stating how I don’t believe in you bisexual people and now I am telling you to be proud of what I don’t believe in? Wait what. What what what.

I have a problem with personal space. The problem is that I NEED IT!

I guess we all have to make compromises and meet people halfway. What if I am the only one trying and compromising the fuck out of things and have to make it into a win-lose situation, where I am the sore loser? And no one likes sore losers, so the winner basically wins it all takes it all.

"He just got divorced and now he's already singing cause in the sky full of stars I think I see you. Either he is the best, greatest man of all men or he is the worst of them all"

the beginning of the end

when did I get so lazy to write?

chỉ còn 3 tuần nữa là lễ tốt nghiệp!? ngày nào mới qua đây đi học còn mặc đồ giống VN mới qua, đeo balô màu mè xức dầu xanh đầy phòng. bây giờ giống thđổi cũng gần 180 độ nhưng mà mũi cũng còn bự và tính tình cũng còn khó chịu như con chó điên. nhiều khi thấy mình khó chịu quá mà cũng k hiểu tsao. nhất là những lúc hẹn đi ăn mà toàn bị đi sớm ngồi đợi vì k có ai bao h đúng h dc hết. hashtagdm.

thấy viết bđầu hết liên quan. haha. nhân tiện tự nhiên muốn nhắc đến Yến Nhi, hay sẽ gọi là yn. yn quá nhảm địt. 5 hồi ctay bạn trai rồi 5 hồi quay lại. từ hồi add friend r unfriend r add friend lại v bạn này đã chứng kiến vài trăm lần chúng nó ctay r làm huề. k phải là để ý vì còn tcảm hay gì. mà trong list friend 400 người k thấy dc người thứ 2 nhảm địt giống vậy. cái mấy bữa lại vậy nữa. lại lên instagram nhảm địt. bực mình quá unfollow. sáng ngủ dậy đập vô mặt tn trách móc trên fb sao mày unfollow tao blah blah. chấm dứt là đã unfriend lại haha. bởi ta nói ng yêu cũ khó làm bạn cũng là vậy. mấy trăm đứa khác unfollow k biết có bị mọe gì k mà tui thấy nhảm tui unfollow thì bị kì thị. hashtagwtfdude

Thảo vẫn chưa hết buồn ng bạn trai (cũ) mĩ trắng lớn tuổi. viết tới đây mắc cười quá haha cho cười xíu nha Thảo. hashtagYếnlàconbạnmấtdạy hahahahahaha. thì rồi cũng sẽ hết buồn. cũng sẽ hết nghĩ. cũng sẽ hết mộng mơ mộng mơ. cũng sẽ thôi nói giá mà. cũng sẽ thực tế là chắc là sẽ ko gặp dc nữa đâu và tốt nhất là hãy quên hết mọe đi cho rồi!! hồi đó tôi vì buồn ng bạn nhảm địt ở trên mà mất ăn mất ngủ theo nghĩa đen, có biết k? we will get over it. okay? give time some time ;)

Hằng với Yến dạo này giống 2 ng bạn (sắp) tri kỉ. Hằng nói v Yến mọi dự định đủ điều về tlai của Yến ở đây v tiệm. và thực ra, Yến cũng thấy có lí. Yến là ng k muốn ra khỏi comfort zone. ko bao giờ. đi làm PS9 mấy chục năm Yến cũng k muốn ra khỏi đây nữa. nhắc tới PS9 dạo này cũng nói luôn, Yến đã k còn là cô bé gái thân thiện dễ thương của ngày xưa nữa :(. Yến cau có nhăn nhó và roll eyes all the time sau lưng khách. tui cũng k hiểu chuyện gì đã xảy ra nữa. or maybe I do. mặc dù tui k còn cảm tình v Hằng, nhưng mà tui vẫn ghét ông Vũ. tui k thích làm chung v ổng lắm. mặc dù cũng phải giả bộ nc nhưng mà thật là awkward. tui chỉ thích vợ con ổng thôi. hôm nào rảnh cũng qua đó chơi. tui k hiểu sao bả có thể sống v mấy đứa con nvậy mà chưa chết.... k phải the best way of parenting I've ever seen (they spoil their kids too much), but she is still somewhat good at it I guess. hashtagidkhowshedoesit

Có bạn hỏi mình "Thich nguoi ta ma ko noi hay thich nguoi ta ma nguoi ta tu choi. Cai nao buon hon?" mình đã trả lời "Giống như bạn có 1 cái răng sâu (răng vĩnh viễn), nếu bạn không nhổ nó đi thì nó sẽ cứ đau dai dẳng, còn nếu bạn nhổ nó thì sẽ để lại một khoảng trống rất... trống trải. Không nói buồn hơn, và dai dẳng hơn". 

I feel like I can use some therapy time... hashtagjustsaying ;)