I AM SO SICK OF ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT WE CHOOSE TO BE GAY. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME??? WE CHOOSE TO BE GAY??? REALLY? LIKE HOW YOU CHOOSE TO BE STRAIGHT SO THAT NO ONE WOULD LOOK AT YOU AND JUDGE YOU WHO JUST BEING WHO YOU FREAKEN ARE? I DONT UNDERSTAND. I REALLY DONT. DO YOU THINK THAT I JUST WOKE UP AND DAY AND TELL MYSELF "GUESS WHAT. I WANNA BE GAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE?". AND WHAT IF I KNOW THAT IS WRONG? THAT THAT IS NOT HOW "NORMAL" PEOPLE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE? SO WHAT DO I DO NOW? TRY TO FIX IT? TRY TO BE STRAIGHT? TRY TO NOT BE MYSELF BUT BE SOMEONE WHO EVERYONE WOULD NOT HATE? AM I THAT STUPID TO BE FULLY AWARE THAT BEING GAY IS NOT HOW PEOPLE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE BUT STILL WANT TO PURSUE IT? DO YOU PEOPLE EVEN KNOW HOW MANY TIMES IVE BEEN HURT BECAUSE OF THIS? OH. EASY. BECAUSE I CHOSE TO BE GAY SO NOW I CAN JUST UNGAY MYSELF. IS THAT WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO TELL ME? AND EVEN IF, JUST IF, YOU ARE SYMPATHETIC ENOUGH TO TELL ME THAT "YEN, YOU KNOW WHAT, WE LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE. JUST DONT ACT UPON IT". OH MY FREAKEN GOODNESS THANKS BUT NO THANKS. JUST HATE ME THEN SO I CAN LOVE WHOEVER I WANT TO AND DO WHATEVER I WANT TO LIKE HOW YOU "NORMAL" PEOPLE DO. I DONT CARE IF YOU WOULD "LET" ME BE WHO I AM AS LONG AS I DONT ACT UPON IT. I REALLY DONT GIVE A SHIT. ID RATHER BE HATED FOR WHO I AM. ALL MY LIFE IVE BEEN HIDING IN MY CLOSET FOR NOT TO BE JUDGE BY WHO I WANNA BE WITH. AND YET ITS STILL HURTFUL TO THIS VERY DAY WHEN PEOPLE THINK HOMOSEXUALITY IS A CHOICE. FOR SOME PEOPLE, MAYBE. BUT THAT DOESNT NECESSARILY MEAN ALL OF US CAN "CHOOSE" WHO WE ARE. IM SO TIRED RIGHT NOW. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE ANYMORE.